Friday, August 30, 2013

God's Timing

Today is our due date and I couldn't be happier about making it here! August 30 sounded like an eternity back when we found out we were pregnant on December 23, but now it is finally here. Of course, doesn't mean baby will be here today, but it's quite a landmark to reach in our minds since this has been the goal date all along. Now, I know I have been pretty whiny about not having baby girl yet, but I'm starting to see why God is working his timing the way He is.

Wednesday night and into Thursday early morning, I had about 8 hours of regular, strong contractions (I had a prenatal massage hours before these started, I think that's what set them off!). There was no doubting whether they were Braxton Hicks or the small crampy contractions I had been having. These were knock you off your feet, take your breath away real contractions. We timed them for three hours at about 10-15 minutes apart and I walked nearly that entire time. By 11pm we were exhausted and decided we'd go to bed and if they were meant to turn into real labor, then it would. We had a horrible night of sleep that night as I woke up constantly with the contractions until about 4:30am. When I woke up at 6am, they had dulled down and were just the small crampy contractions I had been having for the two weeks prior. We went to the mall to walk, went swimming, did all we could to get them to come back, but they just weren't happening. I was pretty upset, but our hopes had been up multiple times before, so it wasn't anything new.

This morning, as we turn 40 weeks, I found out why God meant for us not to go into labor then. I woke up with a head cold. Fun stuff, right? A few days ago Mike was stuffed up and sneezing but no other symptoms so we figured it was allergies and he stuck to taking Claritin. Well, we learned it was actually a cold and now I'm sick with the same thing. I'm so glad we (possibly) have some time to get over this cold before labor begins and our baby is around us 24/7. Doing all I can today to kick this cold and get better. I need to be able to breathe to push!

Mike has been off work for a full week now and I have to say that it has been some of our favorite times together. Yes, it has been full of frustration and aches and pains, but we haven't had quality time together like this in a long time, since our honeymoon. It's really a blessing to be able to have this time to ourselves before our lives are forever changed. We thought we'd want baby to arrive right when he started his time off, but as the week has moved on and we still don't have her, we've realized that this time is so precious that we get together and we should cherish it...even if we're just sitting on the couch blowing our noses together. :)

We've been praying a lot for our baby and her health, our health, knowledge for the nurses and doctors and (the biggest one for me) patience and trust in His timing. After all, none of this is truly in our control!

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

September Baby?

Oh baby girl, won't you just make an appearance already? I took this pic a few days ago as I watched her roll around side to side, so funny! It's got to be getting pretty crammed in there, you'd think she'd want to just come out already, right?

Had another doctor appointment today and no more progress than last week which is kind of disheartening, but I kind of prepared myself for that so I wouldn't be completely devestated. With all of our many signs of labor, it's surprising we haven't had her yet, but the doctor said my body is just trying to figure out what to do since I've never been through this before. It literally feels like she is just going to fall out every time I walk around, so fun.

At this rate, it's looking like we will have a September baby. For some reason falling into that next month is a bit upsetting and frustrating. Maybe because the entire pregnancy I've had my mind set on just getting to August and now I have to wait for a whole other month to roll around (even though it's just days away). My sister-in-law had the same thing happen with her first and I definitely understand how she was feeling now! Another thing on my mind is that September 1 is the cut off date for school so it feels like her birth is determining a lot for her future. Will she be young or old for her grade?

My nephew insists she will be born this Thursday (his mom/my SIL's birthday) and he's been saying this for a while now. He seems very confident about it too. Maybe him and baby have some sort of special communication?

Oh and we also found out this week that our doctor will be out of town this weekend...over our due date. I'm not terribly upset, I mean she has to get a vacation now and then too, but it's just one of those things you see in movies but don't think will actually happen. Really though we've had her for every appointment since 20 weeks which has been great. She's an amazing doctor and has reassured us throughout this entire process. I'm glad we've been able to have the same doctor through this process who remembers us and our situation and not a different doctor every time. She has two on-call doctors she works with that will be there this weekend if we happen to go into labor. I've researched about them and they have great reviews as well. One is even a naturopathic OB, so I know we'll probably like her. Besides, everyone tells me you only see the doctor at the end during pushing and it's more about the nurses you get throughout the process.

Monday, August 26, 2013

Welcome Back First Trimester?

Well, we're still here and no baby yet. Pretty much every night since Friday we have had things happen where we thought, "this could be it!" Last night it was extreme nausea and flu-like symptoms and now all day today it feels as though I am back in the first trimester. I've read that one of the signs that labor is about to happen is this nausea and flu symptoms, so that's a good sign, but then again everybody is different so who knows how long this will last or when it means we will begin active labor. Hours? Days? WEEKS? Oh please not weeks.

Mike is officially off work now and he has been around all weekend. It's been really nice to have him here and has made these last few difficult days much easier. When I get a strong contraction or get really nauseous, him doing our hypnobirthing methods of relaxation and massage are what has gotten me through that. I think I've been asked by everyone I come into contact with if I'm going to get an epidural or not and my answer is not a cut and dry yes or no. We just don't know yet and we're trying not to put any restrictions on our birth plans. Regardless of whether or not we go natural or opt for the epidural, our hypnobirthing methods have been one of the most useful things we have during this pregnancy and as labor approaches. I'm so happy we took the time to learn those techniques and methods because you just never know what is going to happen. I've heard many, many stories about not having time for an epidural, contractions being 'bearable' if you have methods to cope with them, epidurals only working in half the body or the anesthesiologist not being available. Pregnancy has definitely taught us to be prepared for anything and everything and that no two situations are the same. I think this is going to be something we find in parenting too, so glad we have learned that lesson. :)

Saturday, August 24, 2013

We are so Loved

I know I already used this image back in July, but the message on the print feels so fitting right now. In the past week or so I have felt so blessed with love and support from other moms. Throughout pregnancy there have been some not so supportive comments (although I'm not sure these people even realize it or not...) so this has been a nice change, especially when I need it most.

The reassurance from these moms that we're doing a good job and not making the wrong decisions has helped more than I think they know! I didn't know I'd already feel that 'mom guilt' before she was even born.

So I just wanted to thank those moms for helping me get over the worry, guilt and fear and helping me get through these last few weeks. Your love and support has meant the world to me! You know who you are. :)

Friday, August 23, 2013

Our Last Few Weeks

Last week we took some basic maternity shots in the (almost finished) nursery. I had just turned 38 weeks and we had already been through a few days of the mild contractions...that are STILL going on. We didn't hire a professional photographer, just used the DSLR camera we have and I helped a bit with the settings. We're actually really happy with how these images turned out, I credit a lot of that to the amazing lighting and color scheme in her room. Oh, and pose ideas via Pinterest. :) I'm so glad we have these couple of shots from the last few weeks before our daughter makes her arrival. It will be a nice way to remember how we were feeling and our anticipation of her arrival.

Speaking of her arrival, I'm getting somewhat frustrated about that. Now I know I'm not technically due for another week, but I've been having cramps, aches and pains for close to two weeks now. Every morning I wake up (at 2am, 4am, 6am...) hoping that they will have turned into full on labor, but no luck. It's like having the strongest day of your period for two weeks straight...while carrying a baby that you feel like could just fall out at any moment. There are times I think we need to start timing the contractions, but then I realize I can't tell when they stop or start or I'll have one strong one and then nothing until later that night. Everyone keeps telling me you "will know" when real labor sets in, so I'm just banking on that. I did wake up with a very sour stomach this morning and lots of back aches and cramps, so maybe this is it? Trying not to get my hopes up.

I'm not-so-secretly dreading this weekend. I've planned a lot of fun stuff with friends to keep me distracted, but all I really want is to meet our daughter. Monday we have another ultrasound to see how she's growing. Tuesday is our last scheduled appointment with the doctor and if she isn't growing as much as the doctor would like, we will probably end up needing to get her out...and we will get to meet her next week! It's not really the plan I imagined or desired, but we went into this trying to stay open about how things were going to go. I guess you could say we planned for our ideal situation, but kept other situations in view too. Our goal is to have a healthy baby and if getting her out sooner than later is what is best for her, then we'll go with that.

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Getting Close?

As we sit here and wait for baby's arrival, I'm reminiscing through the pregnancy journal I've kept since December. I'm pretty proud of the fact that I've kept up with it! It's really fun to look back and see everything we went through – all the nausea, food poisoning, gender reveal, how we announced our pregnancy and the small details that we would have probably forgotten about. Hoping I can keep up with her baby book once she's here. My mom gave us this one for my birthday this year. I love the design! (I also plan on doing photo books instead of one giant baby book)

One more thought...who knew contractions could last two weeks?! Every time they get stronger, I get excited and then they die down. Come on baby girl, we just want to meet you, don't tease us!

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Daytime Naps & Spicy Foods

Sunday was Mike's day off and we figured this may be the last time to go on a real date and enjoy the day together for a while, so we took advantage of it. We went to the mall and did lots of walking (I wore yoga pants and tennis shoes, cute, I know), some shopping for him (new dad clothes!) and some ice cream for me. Then we went to his parents' house and spent the afternoon napping and swimming in the pool. It was so refreshing to get some relief from the heat and to take the pressure off my hips! We wanted to go somewhere not close to home for dinner, so we went to Culinary Dropout in Scottsdale. It was delicious – I had the spicy curry to try and move things along a bit...oh and it was tasty too. Such a fun day, so glad we got one more of those fun relaxing days in before baby makes her big arrival! (Because, you know, EVERYONE keeps telling us "life is over" after baby gets here) ;)

Yesterday we had an ultrasound to see how big Baby B is. Now, let me start by saying that nearly everyone told us she would be a big baby. I was close to 9lbs at birth and Mike was 10lbs (my brother was also 10lbs and I have other relatives who were huge too). At the ultrasound, they told us she is on the smaller side, 6lbs 4oz and in the 16th percentile. This really shocked us and it made me emotional. I started to worry that I wasn't doing something right and then I felt guilty for wanting to get her out because I thought she needed more time to grow in there. Well, this morning we had our appointment with Dr B and she said there is no reason for concern being in the 16th percentile (anything under the 10th percentile is when there is concern) and as long as she keeps growing in that "smaller baby" range or above, everything was ok. My belly measurements have been perfect too, so she wasn't concerned. We have another ultrasound on Monday, just to see how she's progressing. Dr B says that it's just the opposite of what I was thinking about baby being inside to grow, you actually want to get a small baby out!

We very well could have our baby next week as we have even more progress than last week and the Dr took some measures to move things along (as are we!). It shouldn't feel this crazy to us that she'll be here soon because our due date is next week Friday, but it's just so surreal. I can't believe we get to meet our little peanut so soon! :)

Friday, August 16, 2013

Bump Watch: Weeks 14 - 38

Since we may not have a 40 week picture (crossing our fingers!) and an extra picture would throw it off anyways, I thought it'd be fun to post all of our belly pictures since week 14. So crazy to see baby's growth over the past nine months! Oh, and I'm just going to avoid posting the bump picture we took at 8 weeks. I made the mistake of opening it and it made me realize how much I've grown in other areas too.

I can't wait to print these and place them in my pregnancy journal. I'm pretty excited that I was able to keep up with pictures and a weekly journal. Someday it will be fun to look back and read all the little things that happened that we may have forgotten.

Bump Watch: 38 weeks

How Far Along: 38 weeks

Size of the Baby:  Watermelon (19 in to 22 in long, 6.5+ lbs)

Sleep: Having contractions at night while I try to sleep!

Best Moment of the Week: Hearing the doctor say we are dilated, effaced and having contractions. We're really getting ready now!

Anything making you queasy or sick: Random nausea throughout the day. Apparently this can happen when labor is coming soon.

Any cravings: Pretty much everything :)

What I'm looking forward to: Meeting our baby!!

What I miss: Right now nothing, just so excited that she is almost ready to come out!

Nursery: Our focus these past few weeks has been on finishing up more urgent matters so the nursery is still not done. Just a few things left to hang up on the walls!

It's hard to predict when labor will start, but I've been having contractions all week, so maybe she will decide to come early? 2 weeks until our due date, we can hardly believe it!

Wednesday, August 14, 2013


We still hope to take a few nice maternity pictures to have as keepsakes and to frame for baby girl's nursery, but we're not sure if we'll have time before she's born! These were spur of the moment shots Mike had me pose for with his phone, they may have to do...fridge and all in the background.

We've started our weekly appointments and with each one we've had more and more progress. At yesterday's appointment I was 1cm dilated and 50% effaced. Baby is engaged and ready to go. Her movements and kicks are so low now, it seems as though she could just fall out. Oh, and I'm having contractions. Yup, those 'period cramp' feelings? Dr confirmed that those are actually contractions and we're headed in the right direction. She seemed pretty excited about our progress and everything that's happening. In fact, she took my recent nausea as a great thing. Yay...I think? I just hate the nausea. Last night I had more contractions and for about 30 minutes I was thinking maybe it was time, but they are pretty sporadic still and just my body getting things ready.

Through the pregnancy I've really come to realize how amazing a woman's body and pregnancy are. God is so smart and amazing that he can make these things happen naturally. I always had this fear that I wouldn't be able to get pregnant, that I'd miscarry, that baby wouldn't be healthy or that my body just wouldn't know what to do or how to handle a baby. So far, my body has reacted fairly well but even more amazing is how smart this baby girl already is! She's a quick one...from the very beginning, she was anxious to meet us. ;) She has always measured right on track, cooperated for the ultrasounds, has been head down for months and recently she is responding to us with her kicks. Mike and I already feel like we know parts of her personality, he says she is going to be like me...on a schedule, precise and ready to get down to business.

I always thought we'd go over our due date and have to turn to non-natural methods of induction (and maybe that will still happen, maybe she will end up taking after her dad in the end!), but the further along we get the more we feel like she will be here on-time or even early. Of course, there's no clear way to predict when she will be here, but let's just say we have a small intuition that things will move along early and quickly.

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Happy Birthday Mom/Grandma!

Today is my mom's birthday! I can hardly believe she is almost exactly 30 years older than me...she looks amazing, doesn't she?! We celebrated this past weekend with the whole family on a staycation, so much fun!

It's pretty crazy that I'm almost the exact age my mom was when she had her first baby, 30 years apart and get this, my due date is only two days after her due date was with my brother! You always hear "you're turning into your mother" in such a negative way, but I'd be honored to take that on. :) She's always been a great mom, but it's not until this pregnancy that I really started to see and understand that. Baby girl is pretty lucky to have her as a grandma!

Speaking of birthdays, we had our first exam appointment with the doctor today. No dialation, but 50% effaced and baby's head is engaged. Of course this doesn't mean she's necessarily coming out anytime soon, but it's definitely going in the right direction! Back when we found out we are due in late August, we realized her birthday is going to fall right in the middle of tons of birthdays on both sides of the family. It's been kind of fun to guess who's birthday she could land on. :) I can tell you now I don't think it will be my mom's, this Sunday is Mike's brother's, my sister-in-law Brooke's is the 29th, my brother's is September 2 and our sister-in-law Lily's is September 11 (please don't wait until the 11th baby girl, we want to meet you sooner!). The anticipation is building!

Monday, August 5, 2013

Life Comes at You Fast

This past week has felt like an entire month. We started off last weekend with Mike traveling for four days for work to Lake Tahoe and Vegas. I was a little nervous about him being gone for so long since I was 35 weeks at the time, so I stayed with my parents...just in case this girl decided to show up early and so I wouldn't be so bored and lonely at home. Fortunately the weekend flew by and my mom and I were able to get a ton of sewing done for the nursery!

Right before Mike left for his trip though, we found out that has uncle passed away. Fortunately he was back in time for the funeral and it was a wonderful day to celebrate Tio Bomby. I'm grateful we were both able to attend, but as soon as the reception was over, I had to head home and finish sending a magazine to press (last magazine before my maternity leave!).

Fortunately we had Thursday and Friday to catch up on life, get some baby stuff put together and clean the house. I even got to see two of my lovely friends Friday night when they came over for dinner! Then, Saturday morning I woke up to Mike telling me that his truck broke down on his way home from work the night before. This happened last year and we learned it was just a battery, but he just seemed to know that this was more serious than that...the engine light was flashing. Fortunately he was able to make it home, but it was a pretty shaky ride. We spent all day Saturday waiting to hear what happened to the truck and when we got the diagnosis, we spent the rest of the day contemplating whether we should fix it or move on.

We didn't really expect the truck to break down this soon, we were hoping to have more time to save up for a new car, but at the same time anyone who knows that truck knows it was on it's last life (I think this was life number 20 or something!). Of course this happened with less than four weeks until our due date so that made things even more stressful. Yes, most of the time a first baby comes on time or late, but you really just never know! We decided we couldn't go with one vehicle when baby is here and the truck just wasn't making sense anymore since it wasn't usable for out of town work trips or taking a baby in, so we started searching for a new vehicle (I secretly had been looking for months...just to see what was out there and to plan for how much we'd need to save of course, ha). This was probably one of the most stressful days we've had since buying our house. I was upset that we had to make such a big decision when all I wanted to do was focus on having our baby!

Sunday morning we saw a vehicle online that we were very interested in and it just happened to be at the Toyota down the road! We decided to "stop in", just to "look real quick" and see what it was all about and MAYBE do a test drive. We looked and test drove a few different vehicles at the dealership...a minivan (definitely not ready for that), full size SUV (we didn't like that it wasn't Toyota, we're hooked!) and then our new car, a small SUV. We absolutely loved it, it drives just like a car and is the perfect size for our little family. The mileage was amazing, it had a certified warranty on it, we got the price down to where we were comfortable and it was in great condition. We knew we just had to do it! Hours later, we were driving off the lot in our new car and headed to our family staycation in Fountain Hills.

The staycation was great and the new car is awesome! While we're definitely ready for the next three weeks to be way more relaxing than this past week, we're so glad everything ended up working out and we're feeling confident in our decisions.

Life keeps happening regardless of what your plans are. This week was a big reminder in that and made me think about how that applies to giving birth and the infamous birth plans. I'm feeling a million different emotions and overly curious about how things will pan out. We definitely have what I call a "birth wishlist", but we are not necessarily in control of everything that is about to happen. The best we can do is pray and make the best decisions as things come up to get to our ultimate goal. Here's to hoping we can start taking it easy before life gets crazy with a little one!

Friday, August 2, 2013

Bump Watch: 36 weeks

How Far Along: 36 weeks

Size of the Baby: Large Cantaloupe (19 in to 22 in long, 6 lbs)

Sleep: Not hard to turn side to side and get up.

Best Moment of the Week: Hitting the "one more month" mark!

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing in particular, heartburn is actually getting better!

Any cravings: Chocolate ice cream, yum! (Funny how it doesn't make me sick anymore)

What I'm looking forward to: Another staycation this week with my family to celebrate my mom's birthday.

What I miss: Being able to move around easily.

Nursery: Last weekend my mom and I got a majority of the sewing done, so we're just finishing up a few things for the walls (basically frames and her name above the crib). We also got her sleep area together in our bedroom and also the changing stations upstairs and downstairs. All the pieces to the stroller came in - so glad we got the bassinet for our City Select! I think we'll use it a lot more than attaching the carseat to the top.

We're officially in the final stretch here and my weekly appointments start on Tuesday! We have a few last minute items to finish and then it's time to relax...and also get this baby low and ready to come out (not yet, but soon). I'm noticing that it's getting harder to get out of the house and drive around to a bunch of places now. Grocery shopping is a huge chore! I'm also wearing my hair up a lot more and just trying to stay comfy.

Forgive the slightly blurry photo, its been dark and cloudy all day!